Last i wrote some time back.
Continuing from my last post why restraint the fun (fun here means immediate gratification of sesnes) we are going to die anyway.. logically it sounds great but somewhere instinct makes me restrain. if you look at the other side of the logic which is more deductive from some assumptions than pure calculative as i had shown... restrain makes sense.
Assumption is look at human beings what a perfect machine.. there is much more to life than what i see. i have no answer to why we are as we are, why we arent a generation of cockroaches eating dirt.. why so much senses and what are these pleasures.. how did these get created and how did we get created. sometime i do wonder what the hell this life is. its so unbelievable to think out of this massive open unending hole the sky.. the universe how the hell did we get created.. and to top it we are not just some beings a perfect machine with so much complications.. speech, senses, goals, mind, perception, madness, genius, love, anger, hatred.. all is so complicated.. wonder what created this. you realize there is much more to life then what you perceive and that can be a starting point to discover.
and when you try some occult practices you are amazed more. i have tried and i can swear by it, years back i tried reiki and i was surprised by miracles which it can make happen. A miracle is something which goes beyond logic.. i remmeber by doing a 7 day half hr to 1 hr healing while a young undergraduate on an addict i could cure him of his addiction... addiction of substance which modern science struggles to and by their logic it takes months, years.
such miraicles are there all over.. i graduated to some meditation and am amazed by the peace which it gives it is tough but it does give power.. you tend to therefore believe there is much larger life than what you can see.
and that has to be discoverd, made use of in this life. after all the fun which i talked about is actually no fun it is a like a video game. it is a make believe world... you make yourself believe in a beauty which is not there. you make your mind weak and attached and feel good on getting what you desire.. unending desires. a unending big loop which goes nowhere.
difficult to explain what i wish to say... most of the pleasure are created of our own feeling of being incomplete. someone desires to be no 1 business man someone else desires to be a carefree creative person both believe they are most superior and get pleasures from different pursuits of theirs. They despise the others life which ironically gives him/ her the fun which we does not wish to restraint.. both are humans.. at times it feels these are created realities. created by the mind.. why one loves a woman and the other just hates that same woman. created reality. for the one who loves having the woman is the ultimate joy and for the other destroying her from his life is the ultimate joy.. no answers to each his own and it is all created.
when you clear your mind, you realize that it is far more difficult to have such attachments. what we think we should have or we feel we do not have is from the perspective of being wanting to be loved, known by the larger society. that becomes our life. dictated by terms of society you wish to make impression of. the brand you wish to create of yourself. drop the brand be nobody and you will be powerful. if we feel full we will be far more free from this empty feeling.
all i am trying to say there is more to life than the immediate fun which is like a kindergartern video game. restrain the fun to discover that life which comes with being a human being. this whole perfect universe has not come by itself and there is more and i hope for a life after life and hence beleive this is time to learn and grow. and drop my created reality of fun. I believe.
from my own experience I can say the restraining gives you power which is unimaginable and it is far more fun than mere satidfying your pleasures.
The biggest irony of unrestrained fun is that after a time it is no longer fun and you desire for more and more and that more is always elusive and you suffer and you suffer far more than you had fun. there is an inverse mathematical equation of suffering is always active and in a nutshell all the fun you have gets equalized and net net the equation reads "zero" fun... no fun after all.
I believe. Believe in future of being larger than human being and thats why i restrain playing the video game, of having that unrestrained fun which is actually not fun...
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