love..a perfect partner

I know two woman who are waiting dreamily for their prince charming ... knight in shining armour... life is kind of stuck, all other events are not so fulfilling... and this blog origniates from there....

There was a time when I also waited for my dream woman.. long time back while i was studying and all those romantic movies created that desire of that perfect partner who you could live life with.. a life which could not get any better.. " you complete me"  - such are the dialogues one dream of saying to a potential partner... But i am not a die hard romantic this phase did not last long, even when it was there it used to come not so frequently.. i must also add that there was a physical longing as well and romance dreams were less emotional but more physical... boys are like this, can blame the harmones and how we are...

anyways that was then, life has changed and now i wonder what is romance and love... no i have not regressed i would say i have moved ahead..  love and perfect partner i see now practically and not emotionally.. confusing statement...

let me get to point, I think love or a partner is quite a waste the way i saw it earlier... imagine why will i need to be "complete" or me being "really happy" dependent on someone else... i think, believe to a level of arrogance i have everything in me which can make me happy ... yes you may have needs but that does not mean that without fulfilling those i will not be happy ... i fail to give so much power to someone else... it is like giving a remote control of your life, happiness to someone else.. i would like to be happy myself, i dont want any crutch.. god or nature has given me enough to be happy

a decision to live life with a partner to me is very practical, before anyone thinks that i am like a stone no emotions... let me clarify i am pretty sensitive and emotional... but still finding love/ partner is practical...

i dont want love, partner to be happy, it needs to be a symbiotic relationship where what we can together can move ahead, not to complete each other but it is perhaps companionship or may be sharing of load... it is part of being in being lazy and fighting it out alone... 2 makes it easier to carry the same load... you will have more time to be lazy and do more... the relationship has to be equal with what i offer vs what she offers... we have to walk the same roadds... she is not going to make me happy by being just intelligent, beautiful, bold, and all other adjectives...  she has to share the load, walk similar paths.. it is not about caring and being just being loving.. it is about sharing of load of life.. i have seen this with myself till i do not get the desired object, that becomes the center focus of me being happy, once i get it, i take it for granted as if i always deserved it and the focus moves ahead.. so is with that perfect woman.. unless it is practical and symbiotic it will not work for me.. it will just be a desire which when fulfilled unless symbiotic may lose its meaning...

so for me it is a mind decision... emotions i believe will follow suit, they cannot lead me.. as you never call emotions to be intelligent, mind is referred to it.. so let intelligence/ mind lead me to my future decision and not emotions...

having said all about love ironically i am pretty happy being alone and dont have any strong need to involve myself.. there are needs but they have taken a backseat, there are more roads to conquer than this right now..