unpredictable, ever evolving, ultimate conundrum, satisfying, endless opportunity

so what do you think I am talking about, it is my favorite topic.. how I just love blabbering about it assuming myself to be a little philosopher... I am talking about the one and only -

"Life"

It is so perplexing and I am most preoccupied by trying to understand it. I wonder how people can be bored if they are really living a life.. come to think of it there are so many riddles to solve that one could just keep himself/ herself busy in the game of life. it is just so wonderful it will make you feel one moment that you are on top of the world and another or the very next moment it will take you to another extreme opposite.. life becomes hell.. and if you give start thinking about it , trying to tame it well you have plenty in hand.. time to get bored?.. never.. I believe the people who get bored have not been living but just existing on the endless toys of mankind .. parties, shopping, TV etc.. dip yourself in life and you will be amused..

so life keeps me busy in its different facets and with it I keep evolving and it seems like an endless pit..

today I write about it due to an accident which though does not impact me directly but is powerful enough to make me think.. there was a fire in bangalore last week and someone I know indirectly died in that fire.. young, quite ahead in the rat race, earning well, survived by a family of wife, kids.. just in one moment passed away.. I don’t feel sad but what I feel is scared.. life is so unpredictable, it could just end anytime.. while I am typing the fan over my head could just fall and will be dead or become a cripple.. death or unfortunate happenings are equally a reality as much as happy ending which we always see in movies and feel good about... or the happy endings about everything which we keep dreaming about.. the opposite is so true.. in one moment it can just be on another end.. it makes me wonder am I living my life the way it should be.. do I have enough time or am i using the enough time which I have  (the happy peaceful moments) well enough to prepare myself to the higher ideals before I get sucked up to another end, with life playing its games.. i am not being a pessimist here, u never know I may be just lucky to be on the peaceful side of life for most my living life.. though it comes unannounced so I am not sure...

am I right in waiting and toiling hard doing the right actions?.. waiting for a better future with home loans, slogging hard for a retired life for myself and my dear ones... can I just not do with less, take risk and get admitted in the government hospitals if sick, stand in a long queue for buying it at a lesser price and just use my time, getting retired right now itself... what if I die tomorrow, have I lived well till date...

can I thank myself to an extent that I do make sure to spend some time in activities which I consider to be of a higher ideal.. but that little time, is that enough? or should I increase time spent.. am I getting greedy with making best use of this good time and life just as is...

I am aware all I wrote has no meaning in true philosophical context where they say, just be in present irrespective of consequence as you cannot control it, what u control is ur own action.. but I still wonder...

death is a reality and one cannot run away from it.... it raises many questions.. some random ones I posted above I am sure there are more and there are many answers.. not one answer to all.. that’s what makes life interesting.. it can never be boring if you are really involved in living... i dont need to get high on alcohol or drugs to make it interesting, life itself makes it interesting !!