I am confused...

Its been quite a confusing week... yes... mind is confused.

The bug of doing someting beyond the regular HR and try for something else caught me too hard. its been quite some time in the role i am doing. i have slogged and there is nothing to learn. its time for change either into a new role or have been thinking if for a year i should go and attempt something else. something in the field of education or even psychology. Now that can be a foundation for me to study something specific in the field of education.. just a stepping stone. Its a perfect idea but somehting is just stopping me. I dont know what there are logical reasons - the comfort zone of HR where i am doing well and i know if keep going i will do good for myself.. so the question which i have to answer for myself is am i ruining myself for a want of an easy life? am i just tired and running away or is it that i really want?

the other question is where will this road lead to.. do a stint in education, study become an educator sort of.. and then what? will i be able to get satisfaction of my work life, am i sure? is this that i really want in life? this is the question which is bothering me more... much more than the first

then there is another doubt.. that is is this the right time? should i settle all my pending issues of life which will take a couple of years at max and then take this risk? All this have put my folks under quite some pressure and this deviation in my career will bring in some bit of uncertainity... it can unnecessary stress them when there is enough which is already not gone in our favor.. so is this the right time? this is another important question..

i think i have all the answers all the time :) i can be bloody arrogant but this one eludes me.. i just am not able to make my mind... and i am feeling uneasy for this indecisiveness....

the 1st and 3rd are still manageable as I can always return to my core domain of HR and carry on i will not lose anything. what i need to answer is the 2nd quesiton... seems the confusion will continue till i change my role....