I must confess, it did take a lot
of courage to say what I said, it is not easy even if I pretend it to be. If it
was a few years back I would have not been able to even come to this point, I would
have definitely cleverly crafted a logic why it will not work, why I must not
even attempt anything like this. This is the silver lining and has made it all worth!
I now know a little more what it
means to be vulnerable, I have guarded myself all these years, have kept a distance and have been superficial. Of course this goes back in time and has to do
with what I learnt about life early in life, in my school days, all those early
experiences made me restricted. I realize this today and I am glad I made a
beginning to be vulnerable. This is the silver lining and has made it all worth!
With all my training of mind, it
still feels bad. However if it was the time when I was younger it would have
left me in a terrible state, I would have constructed more walls, moved further
to a secluded corner. I realize therefore what it feels, and how the training
has had a positive impact, how it is helping me heal and how it is allowing me
to live more. It has strengthened my resolve on how meditation works. This is
the silver lining and has made it all worth!
My belief that I have an understanding of what it takes to live, armed with my own crafted theories which this blog is a proof of are shaken. I am very pleased about this as it has open doors for more theories, of answering the question which I am plagued by - In the purpose of life what role other people have as we aren't an island? This is the silver lining and has made it all worth!
Like everything this shall pass as time waits for
none, but it is leaving a mark by giving me a lifelong learning which I could
have never had otherwise. I have moved ahead with this. This is the silver
lining and I am glad about it!
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p.s. - Inspired by the movie "Silver Lining Playbook" and the eventful 35th
