You want me but... I want her

this is an interesting conundrum, applicable in all interplays of relationships.. I face this regularly. Like my younger brother wants to spend time with me but i have some work to catch up and i cannot. Like the girl i met in Mumbai wanted to marry me but i was chasing someone else and god knows who she was chasing :). there is always this race you are looking for something but someone is looking for you and you take that for granted.

the final decision who i give myself is often selfish . i give importance to what i want and not who is wanting me. that is what i have been doing all my life most of the time. the times when i am observant i feel guilty a lot of times this interplay goes on unconsciously..

i hope to do better and be able to give a piece of myself which is important to me, to someone who perhaps i do not want. That will be a real selfless act and not giving up piece of me which i am less attached to or have in plenty.. like money, like choice of food (i am not a foodie), etc